A great video from Face The Issue about abuse narrated by Halle Berry.
The following is an anonymous quote from a victim of abuse.
..when I’m being beat, just hit, or shouted at.
Been bullied by mam all my life, which is probably a factor.
With a few people I almost wanted them to hurt me, usually people I love. I wanted to be told. I really have no idea why, of course I want to be treated good and that, but theres just that underlying need to be hurt. I feel like I deserve it.
Aye, I feel like sh!t about it, even now when other people shout at me or raise their hand(it’s only been once or twice), I almost always cut after. With other people, it isn’t rage though, just sadness.
But in the actual moment I can’t help myself, I laugh, I usually dont try and protect myself and tell them they aren’t hurting me, though they are. When me and thingy are having an argument, it usually gets pretty bad, and I have to stop myself smiling or saying the wrong thing. It’s like someone else takes over my body =s.
Only occurred to me now as mam had a moment there. I could beat her if I wanted to but I wouldnt..