I was bankrupt physically, mentally, spiritually and financially
On coming to Alcoholics Anonymous only a few short years ago, at the early age of 25 years, I had reached a stage in life where I realised I had to do something about my drinking. I, like everyone else, was bankrupt physically, mentally, spiritually and financially.
At my first meeting there were only two fellows besides myself when I walked out of that meeting room, I knew that at least there were two people in the world who were concerned about my welfare. Although perhaps I was not sure whether to accept the fact that I was an alcoholic or not.
I went to AA because I came home while on a bender to find my wife packing her bags and consented to go to AA if she would stay with me.
As a result, a few months later I had several relapses in pretty quick succession, main reasons being non-acceptance of the fact that I am an alcoholic.
So to any new member, my advice is sit down and make three decisions.
1, Do I or do I not want to stop drinking?
2 Am I or am I not an alcoholic and am I prepared to accept this fact in complete honesty and without any reservations? And am I prepared to do something about it? Decision without effort is fruitless,
3, Am I doing this for myself entirely because I want to be sober? Or am I doing it because the wife is going to leave me, or because I am going to lose my job, or because the Bank Manager is on my back?
When I get positive answers to these questions, I am ready to attack my problem. By way of doing something about working the 12 Steps to the best of my ability. Not just one or two of them but every single one as they are numbered 1 to 12. Jumping from one to the other will not prove a thing as each Step builds on to the previous one and so consolidates my sobriety.
Thanks to having made these decisions and trying to work these Steps day by day, I am today a very sober, happy and contented person. AA and it’s Members mean life without it, I am dead or in the “rat-house” I can never express my gratitude to AA enough.
Yours sincerely in AA.