I have found over the time of my sobriety in Alcoholics Anonymous that each day has to be lived by itself.
I can’t say that this week will be a good one, or a bad one for my emotions change in a matter of seconds. One minute I am on the top of the world and the next I am in some sort of depression for no apparent reason. So I have to live each day as it comes; the depressions pass and the feeling of wellbeing returns again.
- When I was drinking I thought that I must be the only person in the world who had such a personality change, that nobody could be as lonely as I was, even in the biggest crowd of people.
- Why was it that an hour before I was laughing, telling stories and being the life of the party, and then I am crying and drinking alone?
- Why was it that I hadn’t been to work for two weeks?
- Why couldn’t I keep a promise or an appointment?
I found answers to all these questions in AA the main one being that I was an alcoholic.
After I found this and came to accept it, listening to others tell their stories, the same as mine, I also found that, one day at a time, over the years, things have sorted themselves out.
Problems are not solved tomorrow or the day after, we can only do the best we can with what we have today.
So to all my friends who have made some bad mistakes last year and are afraid of making more this year, I say “try to live ‘just for today’ it makes it so easy.